Life can be a very cluttered affair. Over the years, you collect things and hoard things until you look around and realise that you’re suffocating under the weight of all the…things. I’ve gotten to a point where I feel like the mess and clutter in my life is starting to overwhelm me. So today I decided to take on the cathartic task of cleaning.
I started with my car. A tiny little ’86 Ford Laser I have affectionately dubbed Edie, my car is never dirty but lately it has been untidy. Crumbs on the floor from food my friends have eaten, packaging from the air freshener, random bits and bobs and an incredible amount of dust. Today I cleaned out the rubbish, vacuumed the floor and seats, sprayed the fabric with a carpet deodoriser and wiped down the dashboard with a cloth. And as soon as I’d finished, I felt better. Like a subconscious anxiety had eased. From there, it was time to tackle the bedroom.
A few months ago I moved from the tiny bedroom I have lived in for 19 or so years into the bigger bedroom that has gone unused since my brothers moved out/stopped visiting every second weekend. Though I have little floor space due to the bed, I somehow manage to accumulate an excess of crap that somehow ends up on my floor, on my side tables, on my dresser…any flat surface basically. I got rid of about six pairs of shoes I don’t wear, emptied the bin (after I had filled it of course), rearranged anything that I wasn’t throwing out, dusted, vacuumed and made my bed. And once again, that sense of calm and ease washed over me.
It’s funny how just tidying up a few things can make a difference to your mental state. Tomorrow I’m going to take on the back room, and after that, I’m thinking it’s time to start decluttering the harder things, and getting rid of anything that no longer serves a purpose. Like the pointless relationships that I’ve been clinging to. The emotional baggage I can’t seem to let go of. The fears that have the potential to cripple me. The unattainable dreams that are unlikely to ever become reality. It’s time to throw away all the junk I have accumulated, both material and emotional, and start fresh.
Wish me luck.