Angry, Bitter Thoughts at 1am

I think I’m going insane. There’s a restless energy within me; insatiable, and infuriating in its endlessness. I want to run ten kilometers. Or beat a punching bag to death. Or fling myself out of a plane. Anything to release this toxic build up of emotion. I feel like I’m about to explode out of my skin, and I can’t make my brain stop. I just want it to stop.

I’ve been having nightmares. And during the day, I’m plagued by negative thoughts, and bad feelings I just can’t shake. All I want to do is shut my brain off, go to sleep, and wake up as someone else.

I’m suffocating.

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2 thoughts on “Angry, Bitter Thoughts at 1am

  1. I don’t like this, but I do empathise. I’ve been here. I’ve been taking this supplement that is helping me tread water despite my initial skepticism, but it’s for anxiety not depression, so not sure telling you about it would help! I hope you can burn it out of your system with some weirdly intense rollerblading (my weapon of choice) or something. It’s the worst. A hug from across the world!

    1. Oh my gosh, I desperately want roller blades. I had a pair when I was a kid, and I’ve been nostalgic about them for so long, but I can’t seem to find any! And thank you. I’m doing better, just gotta fight the battles as they come I guess!

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