I have this pair of earrings. They’re small, and shaped like little trees. I think I was given them as a gift for my birthday years ago, but honestly it’s been so long now, that I can’t recall exactly how they came to be in my possession. The thing about these earrings, is that they have no backing plate, so they slip easily from my ears. I’ve lost count of the amount of times I’ve actually reached up to play with them (I compulsively fiddle with things) and realised one has gone missing.
It doesn’t matter how many times I lose one of these earrings, they always find their way back. I’ve found a stray silver tree tangled in my hair, caught in the threads of a beanie or scarf, stowed away in my bra, or resting underneath my bed, or the couch. Once I found one laying just next to my car door after leaving work, without even realising it had gone missing. Another time, I found one attached to my friend’s jumper (I assume it had gotten caught when I have her a hug). The point is, I never really worry too much when I notice I’m missing an earring, because I always assume it will turn up somewhere.
I wish that I had that certainty about other aspects of my life. It would make everything easier if I didn’t have to worry about how I’m going to pay my bills when my work gets cut back as of next week. I would be happy if I didn’t have to agonize about finding a job I actually like. And I would absolutely love to be confident that things will all work out. But unlike my earrings always turning up, life is never that predictable. Maybe there’s something to be said for having confidence that something you want will eventuate. After all, I don’t worry about losing my earrings, and I’ve never permanently lost one yet. Perhaps all that positive thinking has something to do with it. Or perhaps they’re never truly lost to begin with, and so finding them again is inevitable.
Look guys, I dunno. There was a point I was trying to make here, but it’s almost midnight and my brain is a little exhausted and I think somewhere between starting this post and now, I’ve lost that point. Whatever.