18.10.19

It’s been a strange and tumultuous time for me lately. I cut my hair again (and hate it), I’m looking for a new job, most days I wake up and wish I didn’t have to wake up at all. I’ve started seeing someone (I know, I’m as surprised as you are) and everyone thinks that it means my feelings about love and relationships have drastically changed, but I’m still a cynic and I still think love is for losers. I’m saving to buy a house, and it’s a slow process but I’m sure it’ll be worth it in the end…probably.

I feel like I have lost direction. I feel like I’m always answering with a negative when people ask me how I am. I want to get off the grid, disappear for a while and not have to do anything or think about anything or see anyone or have any responsibility. I’m tired. I’m angry. I’m fucking drowning.

2 thoughts on “18.10.19

    1. Thank you for asking! I’m sure I will be, I’m just feeling a bit lost at the moment I think. I’ll always pull through, it’s just a long haul through the dark in the meantime.

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